Feeling Small

I think this is important. It's my feeling that when we are far away from God (whomever, or whatever, He or She is to us), we begin to feel larger. In a fake sense. I mean, the less we have God in mind, the more self-sufficient we feel. We may feel we're up to that. But when it really comes down to it, we know we make very poor gods. So when the crisis hits (small or large) we are definitely not up to it. The result is depression or anger or anxiety. I cannot possibly hold the weight of this world on my shoulders. I can't even hold the weight of one day on my shoulders. It's true, we get by with a little help from our friends. But they make poor gods, too. So here's the admonition of today, and this is why I love living near the beach.

Lee Ann Womack sings, "I Hope You Dance"

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake
But it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out
Give the heavens above
More than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance


To be sure. I think television is the awfulest thing in the world. But of late, I've discovered this series called, "Angel." Yeah, it's about vampires. I never watched "Buffy." But this show is brilliant! And, as I told a friend recently, (you know who you are!) I don't usually use the terms TV and BRILLIANT in the same sentence.

When I was young, I watched soap operas. I was addicted enough to them that, at the age of 23, I was finding myself saying things like, "OH~ I have to go home and watch my show!" Yeah. So I nipped that in the fuckin bud! I can't be organizing my social life with REAL people around the FAKE ones.

But a few months ago, I was in a position to watch this show, almost against my will, every fucking morning. For two hours! And I became quite addicted. So I'm here to say that the show is brilliant! :)